Post by BOBBIE JACQUELINE BRYAN on Jan 27, 2014 23:45:44 GMT -5
The moment she parked in the school parking lot and a few faces stopped to look at Derek getting out of her car;….this was bad. But she didn’t say anything, she just kept quiet and narrowed her eyebrows. The night before had been…not exactly what she was expecting. Sleeping in someone else’s bed, but not actually sleeping with them, almost seemed more…intimate? Was that possible? Because now she felt like she was barely able to look at him. Obviously she did, but it felt like a tug. But he didn’t want her, she had to remind herself that. Whatever he was going through, he needed to focus on himself. And even if he did want her, she had to remind herself that she couldn’t want him. Not that she didn’t, that she couldn’t. Bobbie slipped out of her car, looking over her shoulder at Derek before she headed into the brick building which was beginning to feel a lot more like a prison. Maybe she could make it to first period. Maybe she wouldn’t run into Nick before then. She traced her fingertips against the flannel clinging against her stomach as she stepped inside. “ Did Derek Parker get out of your car” she heard someone question, but instead chose to ignore it, looking ahead. She was also choosing to ignore that she smelled like him since she had to take a shower at his place.
But coming straight towards her in the commons was Nick.She hadn’t even been able to make it to her locker. “ Hey,” she said under her breath, trying to get her smile to match her eyes. “ What the fuck, Bobbie” he said, obviously mad. “….. Rough night?” she questioned, almost hopefully. “ Rough night? Rough night, hm. Well. I called my girlfriend about twelve times, left voicemails. And I texted you.. with no response. And all the sudden Miami is stepping out of your passenger seat, and what the actual fuck are you wearing,” he said, taking a step back to get a good look at her before looking at her accusingly. “ Did you fuck him?” he questioned, his voice raising. Bobbie felt the blood rush to her cheeks, trying to keep it as quiet as possible. “ No, of course not,” she said. Though it wasn’t defensive, it was quiet, almost like she had something to be ashamed of anyway. “What the hell are you doing giving him a ride?” he asked, though the calm in his voice did not match the fire in his eyes. “ I..” she started off, but found herself at a loss for words. “ That guy is a loser, Bobbie. You gonna give it up to some dude you’ve known for a week?” he asked, before running his hand over his face. “ Look, I don’t know what’s going on here. But it ends now. Do you understand? You’re done talking to him. Whatever friendship….or whatever the fuck you two were doing, it’s over. It’s him, or it’s me. Don’t you ever disrespect me again by making me looking like an idiot. You driving a guy to school wearing dudes clothing that’s not mine… do you understand how that makes me look?” he questioned. “ You know what I’m going to go talk to your boyfriend” he started off, turning in the other direction. “ Wait!” she called out, grabbing his arm to stop him. “ I promise it’s not like that. Just stop… leave him alone,” she urged. He had enough going on right now, he didn’t need this too. “ How am I supposed to know I can trust you?” he asked, causing Bobbie to frown in response. ‘ I’ve never given you a reason not too.. and he’s…. He just…. Look he needs someone, Nick. And I understand what that’s like,” she pleaded. “ He needs someone. He doesn’t need you” he said, jerking his arm away from her grip. “ What do I have to do?” she questioned, dropping her shoulders. Nick hesitated for a moment before coming closer to her. ‘ Did you sleep with him?’ he questioned again. “ No,” she said, shaking her head along with her response. “ Do you love me?” Bobbie sighed, being slightly annoyed by that question. “Obviously, that’s a terrible question,” she said, looking over her shoulder again to see how many people are watching. “ Alright. So then just sleep with me already” he said, causing Bobbie to blink. Romantic. “ Can we not talk about this right now?” she asked, feeling more mortified than anything. “ Look it’s him or me,” he said, giving a slight shrug of his shoulder before walking away from her. Bobbie closed her eyes, taking in a deep breath before she pushed her hair behind her ear and mustered up the best smile she could. She moved past the hallway, grabbing everything she needed for her first class before grabbing Derek by the wrist and pulling him around a corner. Why did she let Nick boss her around? She never let anyone else do that. Maybe she just wanted to feel wanted ; but the scary realization was maybe she didn’t deserve to be wanted by anyone. ”Hey,” she said , biting the edge of her lip. “ Look I’m not giving up on you…” she said. “ Nick is…” she said, shaking her head. “ Everything else in my life makes sense, and I know what I want.. and with him it’s just…. I don’t know. There’s less control there,” she said.She smirked slightly shaking her head “ You don’t care… but… anyway… No matter what happens, I’m not giving up on you,” she said, giving a small nod before she reached her hand down to give his a quick squeeze and disappeared back into the hallway.
But coming straight towards her in the commons was Nick.She hadn’t even been able to make it to her locker. “ Hey,” she said under her breath, trying to get her smile to match her eyes. “ What the fuck, Bobbie” he said, obviously mad. “….. Rough night?” she questioned, almost hopefully. “ Rough night? Rough night, hm. Well. I called my girlfriend about twelve times, left voicemails. And I texted you.. with no response. And all the sudden Miami is stepping out of your passenger seat, and what the actual fuck are you wearing,” he said, taking a step back to get a good look at her before looking at her accusingly. “ Did you fuck him?” he questioned, his voice raising. Bobbie felt the blood rush to her cheeks, trying to keep it as quiet as possible. “ No, of course not,” she said. Though it wasn’t defensive, it was quiet, almost like she had something to be ashamed of anyway. “What the hell are you doing giving him a ride?” he asked, though the calm in his voice did not match the fire in his eyes. “ I..” she started off, but found herself at a loss for words. “ That guy is a loser, Bobbie. You gonna give it up to some dude you’ve known for a week?” he asked, before running his hand over his face. “ Look, I don’t know what’s going on here. But it ends now. Do you understand? You’re done talking to him. Whatever friendship….or whatever the fuck you two were doing, it’s over. It’s him, or it’s me. Don’t you ever disrespect me again by making me looking like an idiot. You driving a guy to school wearing dudes clothing that’s not mine… do you understand how that makes me look?” he questioned. “ You know what I’m going to go talk to your boyfriend” he started off, turning in the other direction. “ Wait!” she called out, grabbing his arm to stop him. “ I promise it’s not like that. Just stop… leave him alone,” she urged. He had enough going on right now, he didn’t need this too. “ How am I supposed to know I can trust you?” he asked, causing Bobbie to frown in response. ‘ I’ve never given you a reason not too.. and he’s…. He just…. Look he needs someone, Nick. And I understand what that’s like,” she pleaded. “ He needs someone. He doesn’t need you” he said, jerking his arm away from her grip. “ What do I have to do?” she questioned, dropping her shoulders. Nick hesitated for a moment before coming closer to her. ‘ Did you sleep with him?’ he questioned again. “ No,” she said, shaking her head along with her response. “ Do you love me?” Bobbie sighed, being slightly annoyed by that question. “Obviously, that’s a terrible question,” she said, looking over her shoulder again to see how many people are watching. “ Alright. So then just sleep with me already” he said, causing Bobbie to blink. Romantic. “ Can we not talk about this right now?” she asked, feeling more mortified than anything. “ Look it’s him or me,” he said, giving a slight shrug of his shoulder before walking away from her. Bobbie closed her eyes, taking in a deep breath before she pushed her hair behind her ear and mustered up the best smile she could. She moved past the hallway, grabbing everything she needed for her first class before grabbing Derek by the wrist and pulling him around a corner. Why did she let Nick boss her around? She never let anyone else do that. Maybe she just wanted to feel wanted ; but the scary realization was maybe she didn’t deserve to be wanted by anyone. ”Hey,” she said , biting the edge of her lip. “ Look I’m not giving up on you…” she said. “ Nick is…” she said, shaking her head. “ Everything else in my life makes sense, and I know what I want.. and with him it’s just…. I don’t know. There’s less control there,” she said.She smirked slightly shaking her head “ You don’t care… but… anyway… No matter what happens, I’m not giving up on you,” she said, giving a small nod before she reached her hand down to give his a quick squeeze and disappeared back into the hallway.
